I’m so not gonna front about how much money I have and make. I’m in college, I’m broke, my manager at work doesn’t give me nearly enough hours and I’m pretty sure he enjoys making my life more difficult for me (well, I’ve always had at least one boss/manager that was like that).
I used to have it pretty good for a kid my age. I had a job at a doctor’s office that paid well and I rarely ever had to worry about paying off the few bills that I had (mostly credit card bills). Going from a semi-cozy-yet-stressful office job to bussing tables for minimum wage has created a few difficulties for me.
Well, let me say first that I enjoy my current job. It’s nothing fancy, but I like my coworkers and I enjoy helping them. I don’t necessarily agree with my manager’s management style, but I guess the dude has a job to do, and that’s making sure the restaurant stays profitable.
All of the difficulties I’ve encountered have been with keeping my spending in check. I’ve had to rack up a huge amount of credit card debt before my spending habits really changed. Unexpected expenses come up, too…like getting pulled over for speeding on the way to church (fml). Now I find myself being more dependent on my parents than ever to keep my most basic needs fulfilled.
I don’t enjoy that. That is, I don’t enjoy being a burden on my parents. I’ve been trying so hard lately to be financially independent (well, as independent as I can be for a college student still living at home) and failing. I don’t enjoy that at all.
I know there’s a silver lining. I know there’s a lesson to be learned here (besides not speeding and spending less). I know that things are gonna be okay (after all, it’s only money). I know that the Lord is somehow using my circumstances to sanctify me.
But it’s not fun.
I desperately want to be doing better for myself right now, but I guess it would be too easy if I just had everything I wanted handed to me, wouldn’t it?
To be prosperous would not require much of me
You see, contentment is the one thing it entails
To be content with where I am, and getting where I need to be
And moving past the past where I have failed
But I’m finally catching on to it
Yeah the past is just a conduit
And the light there at the end is where I’ll beRelient K – Up and Up
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