It's funny. I'm the same but I'm not. I still deal with a lot of the same old problems I was dealing with a year ago, but they're not as burdensome as they once were. I wish I knew how to explain it, but it's late and the words aren't coming to me right now.

This past year has been full of hills and valleys, but to look back on it all and see what God's done in my life has been insanely gratifying. And to think I have years and years of this ahead of me. Like, dang. That's awesome.

So yeah, you're right. Every year from here on out is definitely going to be something else.

I was just scared that I lost the Vy I once knew. I don't think you were ever bad. I think that with or without the break from dating you would have learned a lot. Every year will bring more and more adventures and knowledge to behold. I'm glad you are happy with the year you have had. And I can only wish you an even better one for the next.

I'm not sure where you're getting the idea that my life revolves around me finding a dude. I took a year off from dating so that my life would STOP revolving around dudes. Am I gonna be the same stupid, boy-crazy girl I've always been when a potential mate comes around? Definitely. But when things start getting serious, I'll know how to love him properly.

And "Mr. Right" doesn't automatically mean that it'll be a relationship without its issues or that it won't take work, but I'm still a firm believer in that he's out there.

Lying to myself? On the contrary, this all came from me embracing what's true. I was boy-crazy because I felt like I needed a guy to validate me. THAT was the lie that kept bringing me down.